Life is not always beautiful.....

Mothers Day 2012. 

It has been over a month since I have written in this blog. One of my worst nightmare has come true... my mother passed away a couple of weeks ago due to a multitude of things that are hard to discuss. She was in ICU for eight days and then passed away surrounded by our immediate family. Her death has been the hardest thing that I have had to go through thus far in life. I witnessed her take her last breath and felt what it is like to truly feel your heart break. It's hard to explain to someone who has not gone through it.....there are times when I felt like I couldn't breath, times when my heart ached so bad I thought it might stop, and times when I knew I had to be strong for the little baby boy who is still growing in my tummy. A wide variety of emotions is something you go through, just like any other tragedy that one has to endure.

My mom lost her mom two years before I was born, so I never knew my Grandma Herminia...it makes me so sad that my baby boy will never physically know his Grandma Teresa, but I will make sure that he knows all about what a lovely, giving, and strong women she was. I still cry daily and I am not sure the pain will ever go away, but I have to stay strong.....I don't have a choice. My baby is depending on me to be healthy and strong. He is what keeps me going everyday, along with my faith. One day I will be reunited with my mom and all of my loved ones who have passed on. What a day that will be when I  get to be surrounded by our Heavenly Father and live forever in his Kingdom. 


Loosing a loved one is never easy and I will miss my mom and think about her every day. My mom was the strongest woman I have ever know and I only hope to be half the women she was one day.